I don't write much on this blog because I'm rarely in the mood to write. School has kind of killed it for me. But once in a while I feel like I might explode if I don't do something, so here's the latest.
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If people weren't so selfish, the world would be a lot better. Have you ever noticed the things people complain about? Things like, not enough money, not being pretty enough, not fitting in; it's all stuff that would better their own lives. Sure, there's people who are out there trying to stop world hunger. You know. The ones on t.v. and stuff. Celebrities trying to boost their image by saying, "I'm not a heartless person, see? I care about the needy." Which is, ironically, what they're saying to make them more likeable and famous. It's all just one big game; one big advertisement. Everywhere we turn, someone is trying to sell us something. And usually, it's by making us feel bad about ourselves. They make us feel infirior. Like, we're not complete until we buy what they're selling. We're so wrapped up in trying to be perfect all the time. We all know that we'll never achieve it, but we still feel so empty inside when things don't go the way we want.
Take movies for instance. How many times have we watched the chick flicks and uplifiting dramas about people who hit rock bottom and find love in the most unconventional place, and it all works out and they live happily ever after? Seriously, I'm surprised there aren't rainbows and unicorns covered in glitter, while everyone joins hands and starts singing that song from the Grinch. Movies like that are so popular because no one wants to think about the fact that life is hard. We don't want to remember that we don't know what we're doing, that we probably never will, and that sometimes, the world just sucks. We're all just content to live vicariously through these fictitional characters with their perfect lives. And when we leave the theater and experience heartbreak and suffering, we try to make oursleves feel better by watching more uplifting movies.
Why can't we all just accept that sometimes, our heart is going to feel like a rock in our chest? Sometimes it will feel like a black hole that can never be filled. Sometimes, it will be so hard to breathe, you wonder if you can ever be happy. How could you ever be happy in a place like this? The media keeps feeding you lies, and the advertising companies constantly bring down your self esteem. It's almost like they're working together. The media makes you believe you can achieve more, and the advertisements convince you there's a way to achieve that "more" that the media was talking about.
And love. Hah! Don't get me wrong, it exists. But you know why everyone seems to have a problem with it? Because the stupid movies tell you there's love at first sight, and they were just destined to be together. And that means nothing can tear you apart. Destiny. Really? No, love is harder than that. It's a choice. It might not always be a concious choice, but it's still a choice. You have to choose to keep loving someone. You still want to be there for them, even when all they do is lash out at you. You always put that one person first, and it's so amazing when you're first on their list too. You're willing to give up your own happiness, as long as they get to be happy (and when they want the same for you, it usually works out.) You want nothing more in the world than to be there for them, and talk to them and get to know all about them.
And one of the worst pains you can feel is unrequitted love. When you would do anything to make that person happy, and you stick by them no matter how awful they get, and you know the whole time, they wouldn't do the same for you. It just leaves you feeling so empty inside, and your heart feels like a rock. A black hole that can never be filled. And it gets so hard to breathe. And you wonder if you can ever be loved back. Or if you'll just have to spend the rest of your life alone, while all your friends go riding off into the sunset in their magical movie relationships. And it is all the movies' fault. They make you think you need a relationship to be happy. And you know it's not true but sometimes, it feels like the truest thing in the world. You keep telling yourself that you're ok, but you look up at the stars and just wish there was that special person to share the universe with you. It sounds so cliché, but you can't deny feeling that at some point.
So we wait. We wait for that hole in our chest to be filled. Some of us even try to fill it ourselves. We buy things to make us happy. To boost our self esteem. To satisfy the gaping black hole that's slowly starting to suck away our hope.
Sometimes on long road trips, I listen to music, look out the window, and wonder how many people actually notice things around them. We are so absorbed in technology. Internet, movies, t.v., cell phones, computers. And that's how we connect. Have you ever looked up while riding in a car? Just watched the scenery? It's amazing how fast we can travel through all of it. I don't really know where I'm going with this one, but I feel like we should all just sit outside more. Hang out in person, not on google. Find a quiet spot to read a classic book and enjoy the peace of not knowing where everyone is all the time, and what they're up to today. Notice things around you. The best things in the world are not in the internet; they're in the world. You're happier when you surround yourself with people who love you.
My favorite quote from Doctor Who is "...life is a pile of good things and bad things...the good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant." So don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself. Yeah someitmes the world sucks, but it'll get better. So buckle up and get ready for the rollercoaster.
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